Posted by: alainnneart | September 10, 2008

I am not afraid of tomorrow for I have seen yesterday and I love today.

A strange moment for me, where the mists lifted for a brief moment in time and I was able to catch a glimpse of the future for SC.  Resting comfortably on the couch, watching ratatouille, holding his teddy close, I saw when I looked at him, not the delightful 2 year old lounging staring intently at the serene, but an older version, A teenager.

If only for a brief second of time, when the veils of mists parted and I was able to see Avalon for the first time, I was able to glimpse and see my son at age 15.  Not what I thought he would be like, not what I hope he will be like, but I say SC as a 15 year old.  There was kindness in his face and old soul wisdom in his eyes.  I stared.  I can’t fathom what sort of strange time warp experience it is.

There was no, “Who the hell are you?” or “where is my son?” I knew it was he.  Just aged.  And there was no panic on my half.  It was if he had always been there.

Shocked, I dropped his sippy cup. The startling noise made him look at me and smile.  I blinked, and once again, SC was my two year old.  He reached out for his juice and me and laughed.


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